* Can someone tell me the deal with one year olds and milk need? He can't do cow's milk. He won't drink breastmilk from a cup. He finally took 1-2 oz of soy milk in a sippy yesterday but that was the most he has ever taken. He drinks water all day. He nurses in the morning, at 4ish and before bed. Is this enough? Is there something he is missing nutritionally? Do I need to consider other methods like (gasp) a bottle? He has had roughly 5 bottles his whole life and none were well-received. It's been at least six months since we tried one. Will he be OK without much milk at all? He eats soy cheese and tofu and other proteins. What do we need to think about here? And yes, I have an appointment with a doctor who specializes in diet and who I am sure will help, but it's not for 10 days.
* I keep feeling guilty for complaining about leaving Beck because I know that a very large percentage of my readers and dear friends had to return to work after 3 months. I hope I don't sound ungrateful. It was such a gift to have that year. Well, an expensive and financially ridiculous gift. Anyway. A gift. A joy. I am grateful. And greedy.
* I need to find a place in this building where I can go and get talked down when I get like I am right this second. That is, I don't even feel like really crying but tears keep running down my cheeks. A good 2/3 of my brain is perfectly fine and looking at my to do list and planning the rest of the day's work. The other 1/3 seems to control my tear ducts. This feels insanely hormonal and bizarre. My insides are all churning and gross. And I have had a headache for 3 days. WITHDRAWAL - that is what it is like. Like quitting smoking.
